Weathering the Storm

My heart, along with so many others, goes out to the people and communities on the Eastern Coast of Canada and the United States as they face the wrath of Hurricane Sandy.

In times like this it’s hard not to think of the message that the Earth is trying to send us. Recently we’ve experienced a great number of Earthquakes, Hurricanes, Tsunamis… and we are at the mercy of the powerful forces of Mother Nature.  It all feels very humbling to me, and makes me think and question:

  • What do we really have? What do we really need?
  • What is power? What is control?
  • What is our impact/influence on these forces of nature?

A fellow yogi/writer I enjoy David Romanelli wrote “The Native Americans would say that ‘the forces of nature are always in alignment with the Great Spirit’s will‘.” We need to use these situations as wake up calls to what is truly important. I believe all we have is love, and all we need is one another. We need to be good to each another and be good to the Earth.

I’m sending all of my love and good wishes to the people who are on the path of Sandy. Let’s help one another and protect this sacred place in which we live.  In the meantime, here are some storm inspired tunes 😉


365 days of Awesome.

Even though there are miles between us, and eight hours time difference, today my dearest and I celebrated our One Year Anniversary.  There were perhaps less candles and romantic dinners than most typical anniversaries, however Malcolm and I don’t tend to do things in the ‘normal’ way.  And even though we weren’t together for our anniversary, I wouldn’t have changed a thing. Supporting one another through our hopes and dreams (and challenges) is perhaps one of our strongest qualities.  Also, I have always found that for us distance simply serves to reinforce all that we love about one another, and enhances our communication.  I know it was during the periods of long distance (where we would have to email, bbm, or talk on the phone) that I fell in love… because that is when we became friends.

My idols in relationships are the couples I see (who look like they’ve been together for 50+ years), and who simply sit there holding hands; or when one gets something for the other even before they ask; how they have long talks and debates but could share space in silence for hours. They are friends first and foremost, and lovers (a close but important) second.  That is my goal for our marriage.  And from the first year, I feel like we’re off to a good start.

We had two beloved friends speak during our ceremony and I thought I would share again the words that touched us so deeply:

I love you
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.
I love you
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what you are making of me.
I love you
For the part of me that you bring out.
I love you for putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can’t help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.
I love you because you
Are helping to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple,
Out of the words
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.
I love you because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good,
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it

Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
– Roy Croft
(as read by Lynndsey Larre)

From T.S Eliot’s Four Quartets
We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
Through the unknown, unremembered gate
When the last of earth left to discover
Is that which was the beginning
(as part of a reading by Aaron Holzapfel)

So in life (as in love), may we all continue to discover ourselves over & over… and in that knowledge may we become better partners, friends, lovers, siblings, offspring, parents, employees & people.  May we realize that throughout the up and down journey there are so many lessons and opportunities, and throughout it all if we can keep smiling, keep our sense of humour, share a little and perhaps leave things a little better it will be an incredible ride. Enjoy the journey. And to my love – it’s been a wicked ride so far and this is just the beginning. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! ~ eh.

Here are some of our pictures taken by the incredible Lisa Mark (ps. more to come)

Looking forward …looking back

Champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months, and years they spent preparing for it.  The victorious performance itself is merely a demonstration of their champion character. ~ T. Allan Armstrong

It is a very natural occurrence that at important events in our lives, we often feel retrospective.  As I think of, dream about, and have mini-“EB” (aka emotional basket-case, or as I like to call it Emashional bosket-case) moments I cannot help but remember the road that brought me to this point.  I’m talking about it like this journey has really been mine – when in reality, I have been a happy helper (tag along) as Malcolm climbs this next mountain.  But, wow the view from the top!  It’s hard not to imagine what’s on the other side… and I frequently have to stop myself from thinking of all of the new adventures that await us Post-O. I sometimes picture what my husband will be like when he’s not the zombie version of himself due to constant all out training. How will I be able to adapt to making normal size meals? How will he adapt to having to clean the bathroom on occasion?

I think I must be pretty good at living in the present moment because I feel like the Games have snuck up on me.  I really cannot believe they are almost here.  And the thing is living in that present moment is going to be the key – for all of us.

To drink in this incredible experience. To not to fret about what is coming, but focus only on the here and now.  To not to try to control or manipulate things but stay open to what opportunities come about.  And first and foremost to stay grounded in the fact that what we are is what we are. For the athletes everything that brought them to this point. Each step they took to climb this mountain has carved them into the person they are. Who knows what will happen in London. Big challenges create big moments.  And to not let the past define us, nor determine our future.  There will be many who will rise even higher… but the thing I always think about is as incredible as those moments are, as brilliant as those accomplishments, they don’t actually change someone.  (well we hope not).

My wonderful husband pre-O will be the same post-O, though perhaps a little more chipper Thursday through Saturday 😉  When I was at the Olympic training centre in Colorado Springs one year I found some motivational papers… written is one of my favourite all time quotes:

A true champion is a champion in life, not just in sport.

He is my champion. My anchor.
CTV produced a little profile on him…

AND, then to end on a bit of lighter note, here’s something to make you laugh. One of my favourite videos is this one of a young girl and her daily affirmations.  Well I made my own version for the rowers.  Hope you enjoy!

The Summer of Awesome

July this year means not only one incredible event featuring the top athletes in the world… but TWO!  Kicking things off this week are the 2012 CrossFit Games.  In true CrossFit style,  a day of competition for the individuals was added including a variety of exciting (read: extremely challenging) activities including a “cross-country” triathlon and an obstacle course!  Although my wallet won’t let me be in California, my heart is definitely making it’s way down!  Wishing all competitors strength & courage… but of course BIG love and cheers for the Canadians including the Zone’s Lucas Parker.  Go for it Scoots!!!

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts. – Winston Churchill

Or if this fits better, just keep thinking about what I do during wods (from one of the best movies ever, Finding Nemo!) …So as Dory says JUST KEEP SWIMMING (or biking or running!)

Teenwolf relaxing at the Canada West Regionals this past year